ups and downs

do you ever feel like you’re stuck in place?  or maybe a better analogy is being on a perpetual ferris wheel.

lately i’ve been feeling like this.  i guess after three years of working at the same job, without a clear career goal to be working toward, i am just ready to jump off of the wheel and run in a new direction.  i want to have a job that i enjoy, where i get to be creative, have an impact on peoples’ lives, and have a varied schedule.  and of course slightly more pay and benefits would be nice.  is that too much to ask?

i know that God has perfect timing and a perfect plan, yet i constantly want Him to mold His plans to fit more with my plans.  sometimes i grow weary of this whole sanctification process.  i feel as though i am a toddler walking by candy store after toy store after candy store, never being able to go in.  and i am about ready to throw a tantrum (metaphorically speaking, of course).  but, in His infinite wisdom, God is teaching me discipline.  and patience.  and to rely on Him, and only Him.  these are tough lessons.  but much needed ones.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future,”  Jeremiah 29:11.

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